Sunday, November 24, 2013

From Me to We

10.19.13.  

Vows were said. A party was had.  And a life-long journey began. Six weeks later, we are living in Juticalpa, Honduras, reflecting on our first short while as a married couple. 

Already we have felt the high's and low's that cascades of life often bring, and we're learning how to walk through them together by 1) receiving each other as a gift; 2) living in the present; and 3) letting love be sincere.  

We have honeymooned in Costa Rica, worked in a bilingual school in Honduras, spoken a little Spanish, battled a little illness, milked cows, eaten our fair share of baleadas, made new friends, ventured to a nearby island, and become pretty efficient with a "bucket shower."  


In the palm of His hand, God has held us and led - showing us a patch of sunlight where least expected, or a faithful follower in the midst of strangers.  We are blessed by the Lord's steady hand and with Him, we journey on in marriage and our mission in this world.


10.22.13.  

We share our first meal in Costa Rica at the Alta Hotel, a cozy historical stay nestled in the hills of San Jose.  The next morning we boarded a van and traveled East toward the Pacuare River where we white water rafted to Pacuare EcoLodge.  It was a blast!  And only the beginning of our trip.




10.23.13.

Our second night at the lodge, we enjoyed a nice dinner just for the two of us alongside the river. That morning, we hiked to a waterfall and learned about the rainforest from our guide, Max.  At dinner our candles were struggling against the breeze...so naturally, we had to intervene. Speaking of candles, they were our only source of light, other than the stars and sun, that we had at the lodge.  


10.26.13.

We arrive in Tegucigalpa, Honduras.  Our friends, Michael and Oscar, picked us up and drove us to Juticalpa, our final destination, where we have been living in the heart of the city, surrounded by fresh produce stands and only three blocks from the cathedral.  

We spent two weeks as teacher and administrative assistants in one of Olancho Aid Foundation's bilingual schools, Santa Clara School. During our time, we attended a community social studies fair put on by Santa Clara, tried many "firsts" as far as traditional Honduran food goes, and fell in love with charamuscas, a delicious popsicle in a bag.  


Our new friends and fellow teachers Augustine and Aitsa took us to their family's farm one weekend where we milked cows, hiked a mountain, and made homemade pizza.  Our best day yet.  After working at the school, we joined the Olancho Aid Foundation administration team where we are currently working on their web site, making a short film for the foundation, and tutoring at the nearby bilingual high school, Santa Clara Institute.  

Our short time here has revealed a new motto that we can apply to all areas of life.  

"Alone, we are small hills; together, we are one mountain."  

Inspired by the history and fruition of Olancho Aid Foundation, a past volunteer helped make a mural with children from various school.  The mural hangs on the wall in Carlos' office, the Foundation's director. 

11.21.13.
RO.A.TAN.  

With Carlos and Michael we rode six hours to La Ceiba, a large city up north.  From there, we took a ferry to Roatan, one of the largest of Honduras' Bay Islands for a short vacation.  We stayed at an eccentric B&B just outside the center of West End, a popular place for visitors.


The beaches were great, the water was clear, everything was beautiful...but the highlight of our trip? Taking a hot shower for the first time in four weeks...or eating the best homemade ice cream sandwich at a nearby cafe :).


The island was full of little surprises like this old church we spotted down the dirt path from our hotel. We spent most of our time taking walks and capturing moments like these.
11.23.13.

After our second, and last, ice cream sandwich (sigh), we flew back to Tegucigalpa and arrived home in the evening.  A short trip, but just what we needed for a break and some quality time.

Sunday, we went to mass at the cathedral and baked banana bread during an afternoon rain.

11.25.13.

Today, the town has been quiet. Everyone is off work because the presidential election took place yesterday.  Tomorrow, we go back to work in the office and begin the last stretch of our time here.  We look forward to Michael & Carina's wedding Saturday, another patch of sunlight before our trip home Dec. 5th...in God's hands.



M&L


Thursday, October 10, 2013

1+1=1


meet LindsAy, my best friend...and in a few days, my wife.


starting October 19, 2013...it will be "we" not "me" 

Saturday, November 20, 2010








indiscriminate acts of kindness :)

Love and compassion brew peace














Life Love and Peace

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Freedom: "Break the Walls Between Building Atrophy

(this is the response paper written after reading 'The Miracle of Mindfulness' for an Asian religions course at LSU)




Seasons come and go; time progresses. The phenomena of life cycles. Potential. Growth. Beauty. Rest. Death. For a moment one feels sorrow seeing an end in death, but if seen through a different shade or lens the understanding arises that it is in death that their is the greatest connection and bond with potential.



In the world as we know it, our societies are quite unique. We face different environments, come from different backgrounds, and are each comprised with a unique set of ethics, morals and values. In this, just as each student is unique in the way they learn, grow, struggle and excel... so are societies. Each particular one holding its own different ideological make-up, we become victim of a great fall on the proverbial path of life, (self-righteous)pride onsets and so begins the creation of prejudices, hatreds, jealousies and the life of those not ‘falling’ into the same categories. Division accumulates. The atrophy in the human body builds. We Are One Body though, no matter the difference in role of each part or the atrophy ‘falling’ place.




From our limited, ‘fallen’ perception we fail to look beyond the difference in ‘color’ or shade outwards to the understanding of the whole collage. We have failed to see our interdependence, our connectedness. Whether by means of complacency or distraction, we stay in our “self” perspective, falling into the traps of judgements, biases, hatreds and the like. For some reason we have become content with our limited view of the collage, not really seeing the collage at all, but only seeing what is of ourselves and immediately next to us. Instead of stepping back to get a broader, more objective and well-rounded view, we maintain a comfortable, yet unfulfilled existence within a snow globe, never really stepping outside the delusions dream and into the wild and pure.




Just as muscular atrophy slowly and steadily disjoins the muscles from the body, by cutting off the flow of blood... our lack of mindfulness - the peace within brewed from awareness, love and compassion - is building walls, separating us as is the ONE body of humankind.


The agendas we each set are well-planned and thought out, but as a whole, we’ve neglected the understanding of the limitedness of our particular vantage point...and that, is ignorance. We must realize we are ONE. We must realize that we live, breathe, and move together before we die together; ‘with or without a goal, we all move the same direction.’




This type of ignorance is not one that can be picketed, protested or fought outwardly against - it is a shedding from within, a disarming of the self. It far too easy for us to project issues and make them not our own. For some reason, our generations present have a really difficult time taking responsibility of the make up of our selves (our motives, values, characteristics and actions).


Americans are the busiest we have every been. In that sense, it would be very wrong to say we merely “don’t take responsibility.” We have however, neglected a lot of things because of the whirlwind storm created from such busy, demanding and planned out agendas. i would argue that this entrapment is in fact denying responsibility as well, just not in the sense of the immediate-satisfaction -“responsibility” that seems to run our culture these days. Our only means of escape however, like any successful prison break, must start from the inside out. We must learn to find peace within our selves...and that starts with ideas like ‘Mindfulness”.
Our world is one of beauty, yet how often do we as the members of today’s societies stop to enjoy it? As time increases, it seems our pace does as well. We somehow and in some facet become fixated in our ever-growing consumer-minded culture and enslaved by a clock, computer or phone. We get caught in the clock, enslaved by time and from thenceforth stuck in the solitary confinement of our minds, delusional of reality. We’ve created our own prisons. Our intentions of “self-betterment” are good, but are they clear? Are our motives pure, or are we polluting them with half-truths? These are the questions we must start asking ourselves in times like these if we ever seek to live together instead of merely dying together.




It’s as if we’ve lost touch. Almost as if we’ve become secluded so subtly and intrinsically that we are not even in touch with our own “true” selves or minds - those that were once pure when we entered the world in the first “Potential” stage of life. In the “potential” stage we find the beauty and innocence of a child: Open and willing, engaged in learning our environments and what it presents to us... we face the world arms wide open. But as we lose this beautiful innocence we also lose track of that beautiful mindset of humbly receiving...the awareness of the gift of your cup and the openness to whatever is poured into it whether sour, salty, bitter or sweet seems to fade.


Although we’ve let go of our openness, we’ve picked up some baggage along the way. We’ve gained experience and knowledge, and ignorantly we go on unaware of the possibilities of what is unknown.


If all walks of life practiced mindfulness, the world would be a completely different place. Instead of bigotry, there would be hope in acceptance. Where we once saw decay, we might see growth. Instead of focusing on feeding our desires and being governed by what we ‘want’, we might work a good deal more at only taking or using what we need.




Mindfulness is not meant for only those who practice Buddhism though. Mindfulness does not impose a ‘correct’ or ‘absolute’ doctrine, and in fact, i would dare to say it applies to all other facets of spirituality. Most religions have a very similar core of “goal characteristics” and actions, and it’s hard for ‘me’ to see how mindfulness would do anything but help boost each and everyone towards being the best they can be.




Any good change comes with sacrifice. A world class gymnast did not spontaneously become flexible, strong and agile enough to be able to tumble the way she does. It took years of stretching, ripping and rebuilding muscles, and it is the same notion of “training” that will be required of us if we seek to live mindfully in the world. The liberation of that kind of freedom comes with the sufferings that go with its practice. The question then becomes, are we willing to deal with pain? Are we willing to be uncomfortable for the greater good? Will we search aimlessly on our own efforts, or will we finally learn the paradox: to live, we must die...in order to gain, we must empty ourselves. We must learn the truth that we ourselves are the issue. And the goal is in trying to turn that ‘self’ off. It is a call for all-embracing and unconditional love and compassion for, with and through all. It is an understanding of the difference between want and need. It is a knowledge of our motivations, wether it be mind, ‘stomach’ or heart - mind, body or spirit. Will we wake up the the fact that we are all self-righteous? Will we look within and turn off our pride, die to self - or will we live by our stomachs?












With hope and tools like The Miracle of Mindfulness, many little people in many little places can start waking up. We can work to empower the people of the world to shed whatever mud the wear and tear of time in the world has clung to us. We can work towards understanding the ripples of understanding, acceptance and indiscriminate acts of kindness. We can open our eyes to the oneness of the universe, our interdependence not only amongst each other but existence as a whole, and the purity within humility, love and service. The question is not of potential or possibility, but one of choice. It starts with the one in the self and ends with the one in ALL. If there is any hope is a wholesome emptying, any goal in shedding sorrow, if there is any truth in the mission of the Boddisattvas - It starts with being aware. We must begin to shed light, decreasing our darkness to let light shine. Awareness begins with consciousness and focus of me, where and who i am, and what are my surroundings and distractions. It is culminated by the awareness of the connection i share with all and they with me. It is culminated in the vantage point of: We... noticing maybe the perspective of just ‘Me’ is upside-down. We Are One Body.




in every borrowed breath we take we cause ripples...are we acting as intruments of division, or
That of unity?


Life Love and Peace

Saturday, September 11, 2010





On the road of life the vehicle in which we travel is not
that which is of importance; what matters are our interactions on the path - the way we drive while on the road











Life Love and Peace

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Ku KA Li. Kukiturnoh
- Kpelle "we are all One"



That seems to be the only thing worth living for these days...



"times like these" by the foo fighters keeps running through
my head and they've never stuck
so true...

'..it's times like these you learn to live again. It's times like these you learn to give again. It's time like these you learn to love again. It's times like these, time, and time again.'



But that's what Life's about...isn't it?



life has been different for me the last couple years... Lots of falls And missed steps, but through and through it's been a great adventure of learning, of listening, of growing.


For the past two years i've been learning just how futile any efforts towards planning ahead truly are... And how I get stuck in the ruts every time i do


That part of the road has taught me not rely on myself - to be slow to talk and quick to listen

...'the Truth is natural like the wind that blows, follow it's direction no matter where it goes'

..and that has been a huge grace - a huge check on my pride; in teaching me to 'turn it off'


It's helped me be humbled...
..its helped me to remember how fallible and how small i am - and in the universe, how small we are...
Humans to the earth
Earth to the sun
Sun to the galaxy
Galaxy to the universe


"there's nothing better than love and service, universally speaking"
- the Red Hot Chili Peppers


...throughout all the peoples
And cultures i've been able to experience - whether be different continents, islands, countries, states, cities, organizations, schools, or cliques - those words, their meaning and purpose, are the firm commonality that is the bond...

..The gene of DNA that is
Our life blood as creation, existence, humanity



..How much we don't understand...


When we whether warring, or fighting - arguing or putting down... Take from or harm another .. to Affirm ourselves


What does pride account
For when it's all about the relationships - no matter what
The religion or beleif


How much we can't perceive or comprehend full totality, even though we talk, and therefore walk Around with absolute ideologies from a single limited and enviroemtally-shaped perspective...


Whether rich or poor
slave or free
Muslim, Jewish or Christian
Hindu or Buddhist
Atheist or Agnostic or believer

'With or without a goal, we
All move the same direction'

Every day is a gift and a lesson.. And that was today's (6/29/2010) for me.


Currently back in Liberia with Teach Peace, we are doing all sorts of projects... Today's being a medical clinic with the disabled.

One of the boys and i were talking about life and opportunities after his eye examination and he asked me
what i wanted to work for in life..


Ans Just As a Liberian had said to me before, i responded:
"Ku KA Li. Kukiturnoh"

"come together"

Everything happens for a reason
Everything and everyone has a Purpose
Love and Unity: One F.A.M.I.L.Y.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

'He told me one time he forgot himself & his heart opened up like a door with a loose latch & he tried for days to put it all back in proper order but finally he gave up & left it all jumbled up there in a pile & loved everything equally.'



"Once the soul awakens, the search begins and you can never do back. From then on, you are inflamed with a special longing that will never again let you linger in the lowlands of complacency and partial fulfillment. The eternal makes you urgent. You are loath to let compromise or the threat of danger hold you back from striving toward the summit of fulfillment."
- Don O'Donohue


YouTube Video

Life Love and Peace

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Ad Maiorem Dei Gloriam Inque Hominom Salutem

All we are: the waves our existance throws in the sea of humanity through the values, actions and characteristics we represent... we can choose to fall victim to the sea, complacently riding the waves left in the wake of past runners; or we can choose to be a self combusting star: rising above the comfortable waves, living life as if a bridge for others - giving as much goodness possible for the greatest Glory and the salvation of humanity... Finding our meaning, and living our purpose: giving away our meaning. We can be the change in history. 'the future started yesterday, and we're already late'


"...The world respects greatness of quantity and strength, the spiritual man must glorify God through humility and poverty. Eternity has descended upon a soul devoted until then to passing time; it has struck it like lightning. The divine storm has laid waste our disorder, and charity has only begun to order within us our different LOVES."
- Raissa Maritain



In a world full of culture wars and language games, our humanity is separated by every kind of "differend".

...There will always be some missing understanding lost in translation between the addresser and the addressee of a particular vantage point, ideal, or understanding when just relating through word or visual aid....

selfless, "agape" love is the only communication in which the message or understanding is not lost...in which are found: compassion, humility, patience, charity, gentleness, self-control, joy, and peace...

living ALIVE

Life Love and Peace

Monday, June 29, 2009

“I have been all things unholy. If God can work through me, he can work through anyone.”

                                    - St. Francis of Assisi



…The only reason i can give as to why i have not already sent you this is plainly i was not ready…

 

From the beginning of February to the end of May, I lived, taught, served, was taught, and was served in the Mission Liberia compound in BlackTom Town, Liberia, West Africa.

 

My time is Liberia was totally and completely the most perspective-changing, eye-opening, life-living experience i have ever had the pleasure of having.

 

Being there - living a life of community with 125 orphans and 10 Liberian staff on our compound and interacting with the people in Redlight and Monrovia was the most fulfilled i have ever been…it was the most alive i have ever felt.









i was not ready write this until now because since my return, my entire world has been upside down. Before i left, i was blind to the level of poverty and oppression - blind to the quantity and realities of our broken and hurting brothers and sisters throughout the world. But after being placed out side my limited perspective and on the other side of the comforts i lived among… its hard to pretend i am blind to the numbing effect my comfortable life unknowingly placed me under.

 

i went into my experience not knowing how to handle what i “was not going to have”…and i’ve come out not knowing how to handle the complete and total excess that “I do have”. Haha my brain is about to be in meltdown mode.

 

I went from complaining about not having AC to thinking it’s too cold in my house if the AC is on. I went from not knowing what i would do without running water to missing my bucket baths of cold well water.

 

Everything is relative. Everyone’s opinion is based on a limited environmentally driven experience - Mine name is on the top of the list. But not realizing our own limitations to perceive what “is real or important” as opposed to what “is not” is ignorance – haha again my name is at the top of that list as well. That’s the second greatest lesson i learned from my experience, the first being LOVE.

 

My transition back into this world that i grew up in was and still has continued to be a challenge. After all the things i saw, it’s difficult to see the things i’m seeing now. It’s hard to walk through the grocery store after seeing kids on the street that haven’t eating in a few days. It’s difficult to see kids so mad at their parents when the kids i was with don’t have any. It’s hard to watch my friends complain about water quality of the pack of bottled water their drinking when i know they wouldn’t even bathe in the water my kids drink.


Fisheads. YUM:)


Above all, the only thing i can say is this has been and will continue to be a transition.

 

The longer i was in Liberia, the less and less I desired to come back to this life (minus visiting the friends and family part of course...and maybe a cheeseburger). I don’t look down, or think negatively of anyone living this life… my interest just isn’t being kept as well as it used to with it…call it ADD haha…

 

Friends and Family have definitely been helping the transition. We also took a trip to Honduras, and interacting with other Americans in that type of environment aided my transition process tremendously…it helps when you see God’s face in those you are working with!

 

But as of now, God’s words are “Wait.” So i’m going to try and wait as best i can - i’m going to be attending MTSU this fall, and i will be majoring in Organizational Communications (working with NGOs, Global studies, etc.). i will be helping coach football at Brentwood High and also helping to lead the lifeteen group at Holy Family, both of which i am pumped about… and who knows what else will come out of this time…






 

i want to thank ALL of you again for your prayers and support while i was in Liberia. It meant the world to me, and i can personally tell you it meant the world to the kids you helped to serve. With the donations we collected, we were able to:

 

-Purchase a submersible pump (so the kids can have one hose of running water for a couple hours while the generator is on)

-Take care of the entirety of the organization’s financials – all the food, gas for generator, staff and teacher salaries, and medical needs for 2 weeks (we had a bit of a crisis there at the beginning)

-Provide medical treatment of Malaria for our Cook Marta and a few of the children

-Set up a scholarship for 16 kids from the neighboring villages to attend school

-Set up a scholarship for 4 kids to come and live on the mission

- And many more miscellaneous Liberia Mission expenditures.

 

 

Thank You again…SO MUCH!

 

Life, Love and Peace

 

uncle matthew

Wednesday, May 20, 2009


“all around you, people will be tiptoeing through life, just to arrive at death safely. But dear children, do not tiptoe. Run, hop, skip, or dance, just don’t tiptoe.”



For the last couple of weeks Jerome and John have been joking with me a lot about how short my time was getting here…how soon i’ll be back in my "comforts"…

For a while i would just cordially smile and laugh a little and say ‘i don’t want to think about it’…but the last couple days – i’ve kinda had to…

i didn’t want to deal with the thought of leaving my new family. It’s hard to know how they live every day and to simultaneously know what i’m about to head back in to.
i didn’t want to deal with my fears of letting the world of materialism and self-importance numb down the beauty of simplicity and community God has shown me here.

Teddy giving Clarence a razorblade haircut



Beloved, Let us love one another, because love is of God; everyone who loves is begotten by God and knows God. Whoever is without love does not know God, for God is love. In this way the love of God was revealed to us: God sent his only Son into the world so that we might have life through him. In this is love: not that we have loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as expiation for our sins.
- 1 John 4:7-10


The kids keep telling me they’re going to lay in front of the pickup so we can’t leave the compound…Momma, Marta and Ya keep telling me their going to miss their son…Monsignor Tikpor simply said “Go-come ya”.

Monsignor seems to always put me to ease. He always has some advice that really comforts me or at least helps put my doubts to rest. He’s helped me to realize that this adventure is not ending…it truly is merely beginning.
During his homily on Sunday that’s what he told the children. “I know we want to cry thinking this is Matthew’s last Sunday with us, but don’t. God has a purpose in his leaving. God is merely preparing him to better serve his kingdom – getting him ready to better serve his people. We will see him again.”

With a few words and a smile from Monsignor, my perception turned yet again. My fears of falling into my old routine in the states and anxiety of leaving those i loved turned… it turned straight into gratitude and eagerness.

All i could think about was how great our God truly is…How He led me to this place. How He put this love in my life. How he didn’t just bless me with new friends but enlarged my family from 7 to 138…i can’t even fathom what it would be like had i not come to Liberia.

you know - just sharing a mango

helping Ya serve lunch


This part of my adventure has been one of learning, of laughing, and a lot of loving. It has taught me that to live simply and in community is the most enjoyable way i can live my life. It’s taught me not only to look beyond the gray skies, but take comfort in knowing God is always right alongside me through them. It’s finally given me conformation in my vocation: to be a lover of Jesus and his people.

“Following Jesus is simple, but not easy. Love until it hurts, and then love more.”
- Momma T


i don’t know if i’d say i’ve come away from this experience with a “plan-of-action” for my life and where it's going other than to have no plan. Jesus has wrecked all the “plans” i’ve made anyway…yea…it’s definitely time to let go and let God.
i can’t give you a five-year-plan…or even tell you what i’ll be doing a week from now - only God knows, and that’s the way its gonna stay.


We know that we have passed from death to life because we love our brother. Whoever does not love remains in death. Everyone who hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life remaining in him. The way we came to know love was that he laid down his life for us; so we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. If someone who has worldly means sees a brother in need and refuses him compassion, how can the love of God remain in him? Children, let us love not in word or speech but in deed and truth.
- 1 John 3:14-18


“Love is a harsh and dreadful thing to ask of us, but it is the only answer.”
-Robert Ellsberg,ed., Dorothy Day: Selected Writings (Maryknoll, NY: Orbis,1992),339.


All i know is now that as i’ve seen more of the 3rd world, and felt what love truly is…all i want to do is work for His people - my people - my brothers, my sisters. i know that i want my life to sing of the Glory of God. i want it to sing of love, my shortcomings, and his grace. i want to be a hand reaching for our brothers and sisters who were born into the 3rd world when we lucked into the 1st. i want to find and bring to light those things that won’t be gone as quickly as a pay check. i want to devote my life to trying to better understand The Way, The Truth, and The Life, as Jesus taught.


“Jesus never says to the poor, ‘Come find the church,’ but he says to those of us in the church, ‘Go into the world and find the poor, hungry, homeless, imprisoned,’ Jesus in his disguises.”
- Tony Campolo


i will stumble, and oh, will i fall… but from now on i want to stumble and fall running full steam. i want to bust on my face, just to get back up with a smile and start running again. i no longer want to just fall into what everyone else does…but i want to run the blind-folded race that God has set it store for me.


“Love without courage and wisdom is sentimentality, as with the ordinary church member. Courage without love and wisdom is foolhardiness, as with the ordinary soldier. Wisdom without love and courage is cowardice, as with the ordinary intellectual. But the one who has love, courage, and wisdom moves the world.”
- Ammon Hennacy (Catholic activist, 1893-1970)


The past three and a half months have been more than life changing. The people and my experiences have instilled in me a sense of being indescribably alive. It's taught me that stepping outside of your comfort zone - struggling a little - brings such a pleasure and reward in a knowledge and reality of what is truly important or petty; many "sacrifices" end up not being sacrifices at all - just enjoyable lack of complication…its taught me that we all fall, but you’ll never know if you can make the leap or not if you don’t find the courage to jump. So my challenge is this…Jump. Find something. Anything. Whatever and wherever your heart pulls you…but give love a chance….let love live. Get dirty. Go past your boundaries. Be uncomfortable. Be vulnerable. Be real. Be yourself. wake up alive.

Thank all of you for your support and prayers on my trip to Liberia; it would not have been the same without them… But know this is only the beginning. i don’t know where or what God has in store for me next…but i can promise it will just be another turn on this Great Adventure.



“We can do not great things, only small things with great love. It is not how much you do but how much love you put into doing it.”
- Momma T




“Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be.
I dare you to move. I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move like today never happened.
Maybe redemption is stories to tell
maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go? Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here.
I dare you to move.”


“Dare You to Move” -Switchfoot




i pray for courage, for wisdom, for love…patience, generosity, understanding, joy, hope, and peace…for all of us!



Life, Love and Peace
Slonti


Wednesday, May 13, 2009



“The truth is natural like the wind that blows,
follow its direction – no matter where it goes
”

“Wake for Young Souls” –Third Eye Blind




Therefore, we are not discouraged; rather although our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this momentary light affliction is producing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to what is seen but to what is unseen; for what is seen is transitory, but what is unseen is eternal.

2 Corinthians 4:16-18


What really is reality?
Is it the routine we fall into every day? Or is it what we hold as visible?
Maybe it’s what we perceive as logical…
Might i dare to say that reality is whatever you want it to be…

Yea, that sounds right…Reality is whatever you make it.

It definitely could be staying in the present system we have in the states and getting a great job.
…It could also definitely be scrapping that completely and doing something off the map.


“I want out of the labels. I don’t want my whole life crammed into a single word. A story. I want to find something else, unknowable, some place to be that’s not on the map. A real adventure. A sphinx. A mystery. A blank. Unknown. Undefined.”
- Chuck Palahniuk



i was really into staying in that system for a while. i loved (and still love) college, and hanging out with my friends, and getting ready to look for a job that would hopefully set me up to be successful. i guess it just seemed like that’s what growing up was about. Everyone i knew went to school, got into the best college they could, then looked for the best job offer they could find. It just seemed like that’s how life went. It was what seemed realistic.


Africa has shown me something though…
Work is work – nothing more, nothing less.
It is a means to support. And anything beyond support will be a waste of time...ha, well at least to me

It’s shown me that no matter my occupation, employer, or title i’m just as human – just as small – as the man in slums pushing a wheelbarrow – the crippled, ex-rebel soldier that helps watch our pickup - the guy flipping burgers at Mc-y D’s – the man sleeping on the sidewalk.





“Commit yourselves wholly to God, come what may.”
- Saint Teresa of Avila






We live in Him, we walk in Him, we are in Him.

Acts 17:28



“Christians should be troublemakers, creators of uncertainty, agents of a dimension incompatible with society.”
- Jacques Ellul





It’s shown me that you can provide for a family and take care of them anywhere in the world; its taught me that providing is not excess but merely teaching, loving, and caring for those we love. It doesn’t have to be in the suburbs, or the city, or even in the country you’re familiar with.






“Joy is the immediate consequence of a certain fullness of life. For the individual this fullness consists above all in knowledge and Love.”
- St. Thomas






It’s shown me to remember how small we all are – to remember how big the world is, and how big the issues of her people are…to me, something worth fighting for – to me, something that seems to be of real worth.

Life is what you make of it. You are the characteristics, values, and actions you represent. Reality is merely the caution tape we put around the endless possibilities of our existence.

i pray that we might all realize that reality is only a word to describe the world we want to see as logical; the only person who can set that reality is ourselves. i pray that we might find the courage to be all that we can be – that we might realize the only boundaries in this world are our own self-imposed limitations. i pray we might find the strength to run, the courage to jump, and the grace to fly.






I urge you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God, your spiritual worship. Do not conform yourselves to this age but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and pleasing and perfect.

Romans 12:1-2





Fan into Flame the gifts God has given you…For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but of Power, of Love, and of Strength.

2 Timothy 1:7






Life, Love, and Peace




uncle matthew




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